Long time no see!

                                               Some Issues That I needed to Address
Good day to you all after what seems to be a long time while I never really thought that I would be back on here since I decided to return and look at my cringy old blogs from 2015. Ugh! Total cringe! As I dealt with alot of issues such as cyber-bullying and false accusations to the point that I had deleted my YouTube channel because people have been telling me through pm's and emails to go kill myself by hanging myself off a bridge. YouTube has become a  lot more strict and a place where I couldn't be myself anymore. I can't post a comment without people being a smartass or correcting me to make me look like I don't know anything. When I actually do and I am not on DeviantArt as much anymore since I am bullied on there as well. Including being called a stalker on there and getting my head chewed off by a book author from Connecticut. Practically telling me to never talk to him again and stay out of his life but I do take the blame because I sorta liked him even though he was much older than me by 10 years. That he's also a very private person and I made him uncomfortable but I forgot how I got so uncomfortable to where he told me in a polite way to never talk to him again before he blocked me. I felt really bad and I wasn't clear with myself because I am a rather chatty, lonely individual with a creative imagination. I won't expose the authors name because I respect his privacy and don't want to cause him more problems but now that is in the past.

 I am also dealing with other issues that seem impossible now because the San Diego police doesn't want to do crap about stalkers and not that I am being pathetic. Their resolution was to place an Restraining Order (RO) on the stalkers but I highly doubt that will do anything good for the problems that I deal with since I have an ex who is practically stalking and making me paranoid to the depths of the Egyptian Underworld. Then I deal with a psychotic furry who wants to make my life miserable in whatever way possible. Such as trying to hack into my personal accounts, spread false gossip, slandering my reputation as a cosplayer, and he acts completely dumb when he is caught red handed. Since he wears this," Smarter than you; Better than you" attitude and I met this total creepy jerk back in my junior year of high school at Grossmont high school. I mean he eventually became obsessed with me several times and has said some not so lovely things to me. He even took a picture of me while I slept on the couch of my living room at home when he was visiting and kept showing his friends while saying, "That ass though."
Disgusting.

Sexual harassment and bullying is something that I really despise. I hate it because I have dealt with it throughout my entire life while growing up and I have been bullied by teachers at the schools that I have went to. This included the old principal at Oak Grove Middle School since she reminded me of Dolores Umbridge from Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix because she was such a snake.
I was even bullied for being a Shinto Buddhist, supporting the LGBTQ+ community, identifying myself as a boy, and for enjoying Drag because I count myself as a Drag King. But, I don't do shows due to my fear of the stage and I am afraid of what other people will think of me since I am on the spectrum of being Autistic. More likely to be misunderstood because of how my brain works especially with ADHD but this doesn't make me stupid. As some people believe in the stereotypes that targets people who are Autistic and it doesn't make it seem fair even for me. It's irritating but not as irritating when I stand up against the stereotypes and racism that goes towards the Native Americans. I care about them and they are good people. Film makers make big money when using stereotypes that are based around Native Americans just like how Disney claims that they support the LGBTQ+ community but Walt Disney was a pretty conservative guy. As my father told me when he went to Disneyland in 1967 is that the staff wouldn't let him because he had long hair and I found that ridiculously stupid.

On the contrary of dealing with all of this racism, stereotyping, Cyber bullying, sexual harassment, and all of the negatives in this world is that I tend to learn to try to stay away from it as much as possible. Especially to evade from social media and let people have the right to their own opinions without judgement. Without having a worry and being myself while not caring what others think in a certain way. We all learn to eventually grow out of it and realize our mistakes just like how I was able graduated from Grossmont High School with a diploma. Now attending my third year in a local community college and hanging out with my kind of people. The people who enjoy the same things as I do and be there for one another. Despite it being hard to be with the ones that you care for during the pandemic of COVID-19 and the protests for Black Lives Matter but I disagree with the police force being abolished. Without the police then there will be no order of safety as they help protect the people in times of hardship and danger. People need to learn self defense since I did martial arts for two years at White Dragon Martial Arts in La Mesa, CA. I did it for my own safety of being and to learn to have more respect for the others around you. Since I am now aiming to be a producer in film and media then eventually slip into being an actor and voice actor. As I look up to Domhnall Gleeson and Peter Jackson when it comes to work in the film industry. Domhnall Gleeson is known for playing the roles of Bill Weasley from the Harry Potter film series, the ruthless general of the First Order in Star Wars known as General Hux, and played many more roles.

As I shall continue to create more blogs based around traveling and art. Since this blog was about the hardships that I have went through and what I specifically noticed as the years went by with the media. Please call me Axel since I prefer to go by that nickname since my personal friends does as well.
You can find me @:

• Twitter: twitter.com/shiro_hinode
• World Cosplay: worldcosplay.net/member/Silent…
• Pintrest: br.pinterest.com/becauseby/
• Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/shirohinode/ 

Thank you for taking the time to read my recent blog as of today. I will be starting my third year of college for the fall of 2020. Stay safe, wear a mask, and please practice the five steps to prevent the spread of COVID-19. Thank you!

A great thank you and a notification to my friends and teachers....

I hate mention this to my friends who go to Steele Canyon High School that I am exchanging schools for this year because it's the best for me and for my education plus, I had a hard time at Steele and I got pressured non - stop, and when I get pressured, I get frustrated and when I get frustrated, I get sensitive and start crying plus steele canyon is full of nothing but teachers who treat me like the boy who cried wolf. I'm exchanging to Grossmont High School and I love that school because it reminds me of my old primary school that I went to for pre-school to 3rd grade in Jamul. Sorry for the bad news to my friends and teachers at Steele Canyon High School. Plus, I'm going to miss my favorite comic teacher who taught me well and I was able to survive Gnomon the school of visual arts, I wish to have say thank you to super awesome Marvel comic artist and multi media class teacher, Mickey Clausen. Thank you soo much and some credit goes to my other teacher, and my favorite Hobbit fan, Geoff Tobias. I will miss everyone but at the same time remember you well. But, now I have also changed my path to be a artist in character design for video games and special effects make up because thanks to Gnomon because my teacher for the summer camp at Gnomon notices that I had a natural knack for sculpting creatures by using that very mold-able clay like eraser that artists use and a paperclip that I found inside my backpack. and I did an amazing job drawing concept art and I did a few Nintendo inspired vehicles.
Check out Gnomon school of visual arts:
 https://www.gnomon.edu/

I'm going to Gnomon after I graduate high school because that is one of the acquirements for me to go to this school.

Update: 
The year is 2021,
I am now a lot older than when I last typed this and some of the teachers as of now are possibly retired. I am now in a school for film and media. I am hoping to achieve my dream of becoming an actor and a cinematographer. You can laugh at me but just be mindful that I am NOT in it for the fame or popularity. I am in it for the new experiences that I might get to enjoy, travel the world, and learn something new. I am well aware that the path that I am choosing to take is not for those who have a faint heart but I am a tough cookie. I can pick myself up if am ever pushed down or fallen and I just learn from my mistakes. But just so you know that who is going to be the one laughing now if you ever see my name in the movie credits?
Have a wonderful day!
Sincerely,
Axel

This is more of an apology that anything else

Let's just say this much as I update this for 2021. NEVER do the same mistakes that I've done back when I was just a naive kid in high school not knowing of things such as re-posting art that doesn't belong to me. For my first two years of high school; I went to the worst school that was meant for rich kids. And they don't give two cents of what you do as long as you are doing what you've been told what to do. So I deeply apologize to all of the artist whom I have re-posted their art without their permission and I hope that you will understand that I had no intention of stealing their work. So I am editing this post and all of my other "much" older posts and possibly deleting a few because of how immature I was at the time. 

The photos that I am leaving on this post specifically are from Bing and a image from one of my favorite anime titles, Gurren Lagann. The anime has two seasons and is a wonderful anime to watch especially if you enjoy giant robots fighting.
Have a wonderful day!
-Axel

Finals are finally done!!

I finally finished my Finals for my multimedia class with a little help from my sensei (Teacher) because this software is confusing sometimes, very very confusing and there are a lot of steps to this! Very complex for a newbie like me.

3D animation and updates

Working on more 3D animation and doing Finals then waiting for school to end.


Waiting for summer to hit while studying for finals, getting complaints from people on Facebook giving me their crap about an incident that happened at a con and restarted with the person that everyone is telling me to apologize to while I had enough of that shit. So people who are sending me their complaints to me about that incident, cut the crap and shut up, the person forgiven me and said hey let's start over and I said sure but just for safety and hoping to not have another problem like that one, don't put me in your panels and I will make my own. 

Fruits Basket has a remake that was released back in 2019 and more based on the manga than it's older counterpart. I've read the manga and loved it. I have watched both the older version of the anime and it's recent reboot of it. I liked both as equals and I tend to enjoy anime that has a good story with good art.

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With all of the respects that I have deep down in my heart. I respect the fact that Suicide Forest in Japan should be respected. Not to be seen as a place to bother those who have come to end their lives in this ancient forest. But you need to understand that Japan doesn't do much about those who have depression and they believe it's a flaw. Not a mental condition. When someone ends their life by committing suicide; they don't react. I learned this information from some videos and my own research. 
If you know someone or a loved one who is thinking about suicide then please contact National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: (800)-273-8255. They are available 24/7 and there to help.

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Here's what I have to do for Finals in Multi Media:

I have to make a chess set but I'm afraid of flunking the test because my software on the computer is not letting me render it.

3D Animation iMac and iPod process

The process for 3D Animation projects for the 3D Animations for my class is hard and it's harder for me because I threw a temper at my mom for not letting me be able to finish one episode of D. Grey Man, when it was already time for me to go to bed, I slammed my right fist hard on my desk, hard enough to hurt myself, since my desk is my mother's father's desk and was made of solid oak. I had accidentally injured my wrist from last night. My wrist is still sore and it makes it harder for me to do my work, I can hardly move my wrist without being able to feel pain. The whole night all I could think was that I hope I didn't break my wrist from blowing my steam and was tossing and turning until I fell asleep, with my mom watching me like a German soldier during the holocaust in a concentration camp. I had my bed lamp off and all but my mom was sound asleep by 9, lemme tell you my mom and i sound like two cats fighting over for territory and their occasional catnip. I had to take care of my wrist on my own when I had to use the bathroom in the middle of the night, carefully placing a band aid on the spot and wrapping the same rubber like material that some band aids have to make them more durable and water resistant. It's hard for me to be typing when I have the bandage on but it's comfortable and it's still hard to write with a pencil without resting my wrist on the spot where I inflicted an injury on in-between to the joints on where they join together on my wrist. But, what other choice do I have either deal with the annoyance of the injury while doing notes or wear a bandage to hide it.  I only have a week and a few days until I'm out of school for the summer and I'm waiting patiently for school to end, hopefully I'll do another blog next week but it depends.

3D Animation is hard! ;^;

Yes, 3D Animation is hard and a royal pain A but it's easier if you're doing it while listening to Green Day albums on the internet when your phone does not want to work with your schools internet. Yeah, so I'm learn how to 3D animation but I'll be going to a summer school for this in L.A. and besides i only got two or three weeks of school until summer vacation hits so, not much time left until school ends. I'm really looking forward for summer break but I really like doing this kind of stuff but I'm looking forward to being to go to Japan and going to Anime Expo 2015 with a friend this summer, just for fun. But, here is some images of the progress so far.

Making an Imac for the second project in 3D Animation.

 

 

Making an Ipod for the first project in 3D Animation.

When school is over I might just use this blog for posting up some of my art and cosplay, like my deviant art, but just of the work soo far on my work progress on my art and costumes.